Monday, April 20, 2009

Dis-joint-ed

Sigh.

I've spent the last hour trying to write about it. Perhaps trying to sort out a phenomenon of wanting what one can't have and not wanting what one can.

5 comments:

Nanalynne' said...

Say more...

GemisMyName said...

From "I Speak Life"

"Depression and addictions are a set up for me to give up. I will stay in the light. I am too blessed to be stressed".

You've also referred to this "wanting what you can't have" issue as an addiction. Take two doses of your own (God given) wisdom and call me in the morning.

(((Hugs)))

But maybe it's just me... said...

@ Nanalynne' - That's just it...I tried to say more, but couldn't find the words to say what was trying to get out. Just was trying to figure out what might be driving a pattern of wanting/pursuing that which is not truly available to me (and perhaps not good) while seemingly dismissing good things that are available. Did that make any more sense?

But maybe it's just me... said...

@ Gem - Now...that's some nerve to put my own words or posts back on me! :) You're right! I think at this point though, I'm more trying to understand the pattern as opposed to succumbing to the addictive quality of it. And that's a good thing, right?

GemisMyName said...

Right! That's a good path to be on. I've found myself on that same path recently and some of the things that I'm allowing myself to discover and face about me are horrible and ugly, especially as they pertain to men BUT it's a necessary process in order to grow and do better and I WILL do better.

The reason I played your own words back for you is because I know that you already possess the answers within, you just have to allow yourself to face the (sometimes ugly) truth. But I already know you'll do what necessary.